Saturday, March 24, 2007
had a great great service today.. and not feeling well. after taking those pills, argh...keep getting dizzy spells ,cold shivers,upset, unable to eat, no strength, short term memory,losing concentration,want to vomit . but still, i believe in the power of God. He is my healer, rest, shelter and all of my everything! so yeaa.. i am alright! just that the attitude of some cgm is just erm, a turnoff.. they are not motivated.. hahaha! so i thought to maself that i going to kick their lazy bum on by one.. yeaa.. just some of them.. cause i feel that they have to start to realise how are they going to continue from here. either you're all in or not. no such thing as haf-haf. cg gotten smaller which i think is better, at least you see whos are the true faithful ones.and my bro! hai! need to push also! like the las time me! haha! watch tv, slack all day.. hai... hahah!
{8:35 AM}
Thursday, March 22, 2007
HALLELUJAH!!! i found ma dairy that was hidden like 2 years ago.... and when i flipped open and read, Praise the Lord! words like God, pray and others, those words i din expect maself to write in the past , man i did wrote it man! and besides, i did decorate it quite well.. so decided to carry on with it haha! and besides, i cleared one of ma cupboard and i counted in total i have around 10 notebooks.and i was laughing to maself.. 10! man! just only for my own quiet time and just to note down some verses and all need 10 noetbooks! imagine if i take other things that i have to write also.. cant imagine in total how many if i clear my studyroom cupboard.. i think i can find another 15 or 20 in there.. i jus love buying notebooksknow.. haha .. Desmond just called me!! oh my! first time a 'nonresponsive' member called me himself! haha wanted me to help him sign up for bs.. cause i force nicholes to.. haha.. but its good la.. at least both of them have the initiative to look for a partner to go together! ahahaha!
{5:32 AM}
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
well! i feel great today.. decided tht to change for the better! i really felt that ma life sucks! ahaha! ya it sucks! just like a thirsty depressed animal living in a dessert! ahaha! the thirsty depressed animal is going to find some water man! DIG DIG DIG!!(qila!) ahaha.. but still.... yea.. am TIRED and SICK with people excuses! and wadever reasons man! you know who u R!! and i am SICK OF yOU!!!!!! so yOU better wake up ure idea K! cause if yOUR going to still lie under the sun and wait for me to dig up a well, you better consider twice cause i'll make sure i DIG up a good deep enough well, drink it and drink somemore to spit at yOur face to wake up yOUR idea ! HUMPH ! cause I AM VERY SICK OF YOU!
{7:35 AM}
Sunday, March 18, 2007
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this is ma ah ma in m'sia.. fell and have half of her face have those blood clot.. she's recovering well.. talked to ma aunt there and she helped me to see things in a more positive perspective.. using verses from bible, she explain to me about things...
anyway this is ma nephew ahaha! cute hor! haha!
{6:45 AM}
Monday, March 12, 2007
going to m'sia tonight..
to visit ma grandma who
had blood clot removed in her head
am angry.. jus dunno why..
am frustrated.. am tired..
everything doesnt seems to help
wadever i do dosent make me feel better
dunno.. wadever i do now seems like shit
at a certain point of time, was
actually doing things halfway
and jus cry like a baby
hitting and throwing everything i can see
in my room
wadever it is maybe its jus the way it is?
full of shit
{11:20 PM}
After all the words are said,after all the dreams we made;
every one a precious one,every one a summer sun...
A moment lost, forever gone,can never be again,
so know how much it means to me;
all you said,all you gave,all your love to me.
Feel the touch of tears that fall-
they won't fall forever
In the way the day will flow
all things come,all things go.
Summer. When the day is overthere's a heart a little colder;someone said goodbye,but you don't know why.Somewhere there is someone keepingall the tears they have been weeping,someone said goodbye,but you don't know why.Is there a reasonwhy a broken heart begins to cry?Is there a reasonyou were lost although you don't know why?Give me a reasonwhy you never want to say goodbye.If there's a reason,I don't know why.Always looking for a meaning,all the time you keep believing,but I don't know whyyou won't say goodbye.Even when the sun is shiningyou don't see the silver lining,but I don't know whyyou won't say goodbye.Is there a reasonwhy a broken dream can never fly?Is there a reasonyou believe and then you close your eyes?Give me a reasonwhy you hide away so much inside.If there's a reason,I don't know why.Is there a reasonwhy a broken heart begins to cry?Is there a reasonyou were lost although you don't know why?Give me a reasonwhy you never want to say goodbye.If there's a reasonI don't know why.I don't know why.I don't know why.I don't know why.
{6:32 AM}
Monday, March 5, 2007
had a wacky day today, ahaha! had a 'family' day and it was neither here nor there... cause everybody wanted to go sentosa, but then later after reaching there... everybody stone... and ask why did we come here.. and everybody was fighting! then after which i wanted to play water.. which is swim.. but then ma mom said NO hahahaha!!!!! so funny! then later 'tuasing' along tuas there to find a restaurant to makan.. after which then reached home all theses took whole day ! oh my my!!!
{5:49 AM}
Sunday, March 4, 2007
its well, humph.. kinna not bad la these days ahah! although have little 'accident' ahah is it but it was great! not that the accident was great but get to really talk things with ma family though not the religion part yet but everythings fine! and i am over the top of earth man! dilys got a blog! omg can u believe it! blog! her! ahah!
{8:08 AM}