heh evening time was great ! where there's no fight over religion or money issues. had first family time since wad 3 or 4 years old is it? no i think smaller.. haha! well as far i can remember, this is the first mini outing we had. drove ma parents and sister, bro to pasir ris park around 8 plus to there.. before that we bought durians .. haha eat durians in park! woo! then ma dad sister and bro and i raced each other to the car. i got in second heh! not bad huh.. after which drove to geylang there had 'chou dou fu' smelly beancurd, and others. i ate around 15! wow! a record! who ask ma family din ate much. sian lo. then later ma fren called and drove to pick her up to eat too. she also cant eat much hahahha! i jus love the smelly beancurd, but this wasn smelly enough searching for smellier!!

{7:52 AM}

this was ma expression to ma sister when she asked me to burn the 'temple' cd into ma lappie.. she din think about ma feelings, and of course i will not wanna do tht wad for man.. i jus refuse nicely.. but she still grumble about me being blah....

really praying inside ma heart that ma family will get saved! and hai.. i really get very upset these few days.. REAL UPSET about hai.... wad to do .. dabian lol ! forget it.. if they dun appreaciate it then nvr mind.. but REPENT man!

{6:55 AM}

was quite upset today, ..... maybe everything going around is making me feel bad all over again. this time i did ask God, why these? why are these all happening and its getting worse... and this time, i really tried all out, gave ma best behaviour, really tried to put things back on track again.. but they till cant understand me.. and force me and argh! a lot of things.. ha.. its all messy .. din wanna say.. but see how lo.. nvr going to give up man.. argh! haha.. praying that it really will go away.. otherwise guess this time, i dun think i going to make it over. yea. OVER!

{7:36 AM}

ain't these cutey cute cute!! heh!

{8:13 PM}

hehe... went for service about half an hour then rushed off to restaurant for reunion dinner.. drank about 5 glasses of red wine, its such a great feeling, such a long time since last year i did not touch any alcohol. but was just half sober, not too bad.. reunion dinner was fun with ching, always fun with her and being with her just able to be myself and have fun! but seeing xiong makes me very upset.. but who cares about him.. haha!! planning what to do and where to go tomoro cause feel very sian.. haha...

{6:52 AM}

Jesus, take the wheel
(Carrie Underwood)
She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati On a snow white Christmas Eve Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline It been a long hard year She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention She was going way to fast Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass She saw both their lives flash before her eyes She didn't even have time to cry She was sooo scared She threw her hands up in the air Jesus take the wheel Take it from my hands Cause I can't do this all on my own I'm letting go So give me one more chance To save me from this road I'm on Jesus take the wheel It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder And the car came to a stop She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock And for the first time in a long time She bowed her head to pray She said I'm sorry for the way I've been living my life I know I've got to change So from now on tonight Jesus take the wheel Take it from my hands Cause I can't do this all my own I'm letting go So give me one more chance To save me from this road I'm on Oh, Jesus take the wheel Oh, I'm letting go So give me one more chance Save me from this road I'm on From this road I'm on Jesus take the wheel Oh, take it, take it from me Oh, why, oh

{10:11 AM}

woo hoo~ managed to persuade stella to come daddy there and work, haha, seeing her work is do funny!! cause she looks funny though twith the apron and seeing her work without all those vulgar languages really wow! and bought tulips for evan on behalf of cg for valentine! hope she like it ! hehehe.. family all sick, have to take care of them too.. dreamt about regina, wondering if i should do something to help her.. hai... see how its goes ba.. haha!!

{8:31 AM}

well, had a quite a day today, i and mom had agreed to find ma jeans and shoes today afternoon, but in the afternoon when she came back and fetch me, she bring me to temple...dots.... well, humph, since she insist on it, i might as well go, not that i believe in it, but if going makes her feel better, i went... the fortune teller said the first thing is " wa! what you fretting over? a lot of going on in your mind ah.. then he said , well you excel in 2 subject, you know which? the subject on tv and radio... and he went on, you can study, but lazy, and u mus marry after 25 years old, and you leave long hair betta and dun be jealous easily, and so on..." i was quite upset, why do they have to believe in this rather than realli working and create a destiny a so called better future than sitting here listening to these..

i was quite affected, not by his words, but by how my family insist on bringing me to temple... and which after, ma sister as usual attacked on who i believe in, insult ma God, insult ma way of living.. when i explain to them, they attack me.. and i feel i want to cry, why can't they be understanding as i am to them? time... time tells everything.. jus hope it wun get worse.. really praying hard... argh..

{5:48 AM}

Jus very irritated ah! Haha.. quite a thing to say at the first entry but well.. I really feel up to ma neck.. and really praying through… through all.. and really hope that ma family will get saved.. I jus feel sometimes I will get internal injury haha.. but hai it’s most of believers have to go through with a different religion background. sigh....

{8:32 AM}